August 13, 2015
Every night, without fail, we are bombed. Thursday night was exceptionally loud, to the point they hit us about 15x in a row, one after another, I wasn’t sure it was going to stop. I talked on line with a few friends, prayer warriors. I tend to not talk with Rich, as it just worries him, and he feels helpless to help us…it is a frustrating dilemma to be in for any loved one of someone in a dangerous situation. You try to convey to people what you are experiencing, but words can never define what you are experiencing. Sheer fright, sheer terror…and the noise, it is unbearable. You can’t put in ear plugs, because you have to hear the bombs going and coming, you have to listen…you have to detect the direction that it is coming, the type of bomb being used, and listen…listen for the ‘whizzing’, how close is it, then you discern what to do next. This is life…it isn’t ‘water coolers’, clean houses, pushing papers, party planning, back to school shopping…it is surviving the bombs.
My friend wrote this to me about a vision she had, so I thought I would share it:
“I was thinking a lot about you today and chatting to God about you. Were your ears burning?
And I had a vision of a beautiful natural bridge one made of wood. It was over a large river away from houses and people. Green grass and forests nearby. On the opposite side was sunny and luscious plants trees and sun. Lovely children ran across the bridge and I felt the vibrations and loud sounds as they ran across. On the other side they ran Free safe but they kept going on. I didn’t see any further. But the bridge remained. I believe you are the bridge across the river and the bridge is supported by God. You will feel the vibrations and sounds of everyone God brings to you. You will enable them but they will go on and you remain so that more can cross. You will enable more and more. God is your support and foundation. But more but more he built you up here because he knows you stayed when others left. Amen x
Teresa, you are the bridge He is the support and foundation. Just because you stayed when everyone else ran away, you have already served your purpose. You will feel the stamping of the feet running through you, you will feel them all, and you wont always know or see what has happened to them, the precious ones running through you. You are amazing and golden. You don’t know what you have achieved yet, one day you will see in all the Glory how many people you touched and helped. God knew you would not run away, he knows your heart. He knows what you are suffering now. Sacrifice loss, fear anxiety so many things. But you are an enabler and an encourager; you give strength just by standing in that place and not giving up or leaving them in their hour of need.
God is with you now and always.
I am praying and so proud of you Lady
I cannot tell you how proud I am of you to tell people that there is someone who did not leave and doing so much. I am proud to know you
when trouble first started Teresa, there was a mass exodus of people who claimed to know God, missionaries priests etc, I will not judge them it is not my place, but I felt angry they left, Sorry, I am Irish LOL
True Courage Teresa: ‘Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgment that something else is more important than fear.” Ambrose Redmoon
We are exactly that, human, and we feel fear, we are supposed to. It’s having fear but acting anyway
That is what God enables us to do
He gives us the strength when we are most afraid
when we do not know or understand, because without God I would only have fear, with God I am enabled to have courage
Deep in our souls we know who we really are, but the present and clear dangers are in front of our eyes, we see death and we know the reality of life on this Earth. But God sees beyond that, he knows what is in front beyond what we see and know
So, we stand still in the midst of everything that is chaotic, and wait for the still peace calm of the Holy Spirit to sustain us
Teresa, God is with you completely now and always”
Romans 8
The whole chapter is so encouraging
Romans 8:28 – 39 Amen More Than Conquerors 28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. 29 For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. 30 And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified. 31 What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? 32 He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all–how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? 33 Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. 34 Who is he that condemns? Christ Jesus, who died–more than that, who was raised to life–is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. 35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? 36 As it is written: “For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.” 37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord, Amen.
My response to her: “These words encouraged me, because really no one except those who have been here, understand this fear, and challenge to be here and help those in need. The day in and day out challenge to discern needs, and decide what to do in each situation. Thanks love, you are the best, XXX”